So this is the right time for me to share this. This is one of the most important reflections that I have had in my life so far. I realized that I was living my life with hatred and regrets in my heart for these past few years . And the result, I was messed up in all areas. I made many wrong decisions in life. People cares for me but I did not value anything because I became self centered person. For these past few years, I made my self believe that I have a strong mind and brave heart that I can do all things with my own capabilities. I had forgotten that I am only a HUMAN. I have a good heart but misunderstood by many. For these past few years, I was also living in unhealed pain and pretending I am okay. But I am only a Human, it was reflected in my actions and how I deal with people around me. So everything was became chained reactions. My heart became so cold and gray. I was stressed but I did not realize it until my health suffered. I was misunderstood by many because they do not understand that I was having a hard time handling my sentiments and relationship due to health reasons. I was longing to the love that this world cannot give and satisfied my soul. I was surrounded by wrong people. I was LOST at all. I was reached the point where anxiety holded me a hostage inside of my house, inside of my head and my heart was like a high fever that will break me anytime. I have reached the point where I can not handle my life anymore and my soul was been restless. I've been searching and desperately longing until I found the right path where God is waiting for me at the end. I have learned that God is always been there for me but I was too attached with worldly things that separates God's love from me. I was so busy in every details of this world that I had forgotten to surrender everything to Him yet He saved me after all. He did not judge me based on my mistakes and failures due to my selfish desires. I am his princess. I am loved. I am valued. I missed him. I missed the love that this world cannot give. I believe he has saved me time and again. He has always been my hope and salvation. I can now declare I AM FREE. I AM AT PEACE. I AM LOVED WITH AN AMAZING LOVE. I am starting all over again. God is fixing and healing all broken pieces and areas of my life.
Love always♥mhargie♥
