“I know that I have not yet reached that goal, but there is one thing I always do. Forgetting the past and straining toward what is ahead, I keep trying to reach the goal and get the prize for which God called me through Christ to the life above.” (Philippians 3:13-14 NCV)
Faith Goals 2016:
- To pray more for others. To pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks.
- To walk in peace,forgiveness and unity.
- Continuously walk in accountability and transparency
- To love other people more and live life with purity and holiness
- To be more socially responsible (continuously pray the nations)
- To lead people with integrity ,faith and excellence
Personal:
Restore broken relationship with my bestfriends
More Quiet time with God
Read more and more books:-)
To have more Compassionate friends who will pray for me instead of talking about me.
To travel a lot.
Have focus in all areas of life.
To blog, create and inspire.
To be thrifty and be productive this 2016
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.” (Proverbs 16:3, NIV)
I pray 2016 will surprise me with beautiful things. I declare Victory in all areas of my life. In Jesus name. Amen ♥
Love always♥mhargie♥
Looking back, 2015 was been challenging year for me and it's like a daring adventure. Troubles, personal hardships and genuine challenges that 2015 has brought made me stronger and firm. I encountered fooled and liar people, twisted you around after all good things I've done to them and faced tough situations where the only option was to be strong. Eventually, I surpassed all those trials that came into my life where it test my integrity. I have no regrets because I chose to be real and honest, I have decided not to take revenge and submit everything to God rather. On the other hand , I'm grateful because I have genuine friends who are always been there for me and of course my family and my home where I can rest peacefully. I tried to live away from them but it kills me. It is really essential that we have home at the end of the day. My mother's love and support is always been the best of everything that God gave to me. She's there when I made mistakes and failures in life, ready to hug and accept me time and again. She's there to understand eventhough I have never tell any of my problems to her but I know She feels it because she is my mother.
I am a kind of person that never tell anyone apart from God about my personal hardship because I believe in my own capabilities yet I cant deny the fact that I'm just a human, I breakdown, subdued and shattered several times but my faith is always been my hope to lift me up. There were so many things that has happened in my twenty six years of existence and I believe no one is living without hardship in life, everyone is fighting a hard battle in this cruel world. One of the lessons that I have learned in life is be careful to whom you will trust to and invest your time and energy, some are good to you but they are like vampires who will suck you anytime and use you for their own selfish desires. I really have to be careful this time and invulnerable.
If there is one thing that I love about myself is I never let my situation define my worth, define my value or define my future. I am more than a CONQUEROR. NO matter who I am, where I am , what I've done right or wrong, I still have a TOMORROW that will be better than my YESTERDAY. God made me beautiful and only God can judge me. Whatever I want to be, do and have in this life GOD is with me always. I am worth it.
Love always♥mhargie♥
My Christmas 2015 was been great. I was able to attend at our yearly party and reunion at the same time with my real friends. I've been receiving some party invitations from some good friends unfortunately I was not able to come. I've been reflecting of my whole year's experiences and life lessons that this year has brought. So many struggles and challenges but still great for me and I remember that due to stressed and urgent things I was not able to plan and focus on my Faith goals 2015. So I pray next year 2016, will be more focus to all areas of my life. I would share my 2015 Faith Goals soon and there are so many things that been running on my mind that I'd like to share here on my personal blog since Im starting to love writing and blogging again. Sweetnight ♥
Love always♥mhargie♥
So this is the right time for me to share this. This is one of the most important reflections that I have had in my life so far. I realized that I was living my life with hatred and regrets in my heart for these past few years . And the result, I was messed up in all areas. I made many wrong decisions in life. People cares for me but I did not value anything because I became self centered person. For these past few years, I made my self believe that I have a strong mind and brave heart that I can do all things with my own capabilities. I had forgotten that I am only a HUMAN. I have a good heart but misunderstood by many. For these past few years, I was also living in unhealed pain and pretending I am okay. But I am only a Human, it was reflected in my actions and how I deal with people around me. So everything was became chained reactions. My heart became so cold and gray. I was stressed but I did not realize it until my health suffered. I was misunderstood by many because they do not understand that I was having a hard time handling my sentiments and relationship due to health reasons. I was longing to the love that this world cannot give and satisfied my soul. I was surrounded by wrong people. I was LOST at all. I was reached the point where anxiety holded me a hostage inside of my house, inside of my head and my heart was like a high fever that will break me anytime. I have reached the point where I can not handle my life anymore and my soul was been restless. I've been searching and desperately longing until I found the right path where God is waiting for me at the end. I have learned that God is always been there for me but I was too attached with worldly things that separates God's love from me. I was so busy in every details of this world that I had forgotten to surrender everything to Him yet He saved me after all. He did not judge me based on my mistakes and failures due to my selfish desires. I am his princess. I am loved. I am valued. I missed him. I missed the love that this world cannot give. I believe he has saved me time and again. He has always been my hope and salvation. I can now declare I AM FREE. I AM AT PEACE. I AM LOVED WITH AN AMAZING LOVE. I am starting all over again. God is fixing and healing all broken pieces and areas of my life.
Love always♥mhargie♥
I would like to apologize to all my bestfriends, truefriends and you who always been there for me :-( I am so sorry to all things I have done. I know you guys will never forget the ungrateful things that I have said and done.I know, what I have done was unjust. I AM SORRY. I am sorry because I allowed hatred to lead my heart. I AM SORRY because I did not value anything.I AM SORRY because I was selfish. You were probably do not understand me at all, I know. I have messed up, life tore us apart, but no matter where I am or what I’m doing, there is always a place in my heart, just for all of you. I will never forget how good you were to me. We may not have spoken since a long time. But nothing can steal the memories. I wanna ask for unconditional love and understanding , maybe it's too much but I believe things will fall into its proper places at the right time.
As my best friends, I know you guys have the rights to demand an apology. As your best friend, I hope you know I have the right to demand forgiveness. I AM SORRY.
Love always♥mhargie♥
Cause I'm broken and down to nothing. But I'm still holding on to the one thing. You are God and you are strong when I am weak.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength and I don't have to be Strong enough... Strong enough....
Love always♥mhargie♥
“Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you...
If you think it long and mad the wind of banners that passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots. Remember that, on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land” .
― Pablo Neruda, Selected Poems
Love always♥mhargie♥
