My longing Soul...

So this is the right time for me to share this. This is one of the most important reflections that I have had in my life so far. I realized that I was living my life with hatred and regrets in my heart for these past few years . And the result, I was messed up in all areas. I made many wrong decisions in life. People cares for me but I did not value anything because I became self centered person.  For these past few years, I made my self believe that I have a strong mind and brave heart that I can do all things with my own capabilities. I  had forgotten that I am only a HUMAN. I have a good heart but misunderstood by many. For these past few years,  I was also living  in unhealed pain and pretending I am okay. But I am only a Human, it was reflected in my actions and how I deal with people around me. So everything was became chained reactions. My heart became so cold and gray. I was stressed but I did not realize it until my health suffered. I was misunderstood by many because they do not understand that I was having a hard time handling my sentiments and relationship due to health reasons. I was longing to the love that this world cannot give and satisfied my soul. I was surrounded by wrong people. I was LOST at all. I was reached the point where anxiety holded me a hostage inside of my house, inside of my head and my heart was like a high fever that will break me anytime. I have reached the point where I can not handle my life anymore and my soul was been restless. I've been searching and desperately longing until I found the right path where God is waiting for me at the end. I have learned that God is always been there for me but I was too attached with worldly things that separates God's love from me. I was so busy in every details of this world that I had forgotten to surrender everything to Him yet He saved me after all. He did not judge me based on my mistakes and failures due to my selfish desires. I am his princess. I am loved. I am valued.  I missed him. I missed the love that this world cannot give. I believe he has saved me time and again. He has always been my hope and salvation. I can now declare  I AM FREE.  I AM AT PEACE. I AM LOVED WITH AN AMAZING LOVE. I am starting all over again. God is fixing and healing all broken pieces and areas of my life. 



Love always♥mhargie♥

I am SORRY.

I would like to apologize to all my bestfriends, truefriends and you who always been there for me :-( I am so sorry to all things I have done. I know you guys will never forget the ungrateful things that I have said and done.I know, what I have done was unjust. I AM SORRY. I am sorry because I allowed hatred to lead my heart. I AM SORRY because I did not value anything.I AM SORRY because I was selfish.  You were probably do not understand me at all, I know.  I have messed up,  life tore us apart, but no matter where I am or what I’m doing, there is always a place in my heart, just for all of you. I will never forget how good you were to me. We may not have spoken since a long time. But nothing can steal the memories. I wanna ask for unconditional love and understanding , maybe it's too much but I believe things will fall into its proper places at the right time. 

As my best friends, I know you guys have the rights to demand an apology. As your best friend, I hope you know I have the right to demand forgiveness. I AM SORRY.

Love always♥mhargie♥

Strong Enough

Cause I'm broken and down to nothing. But I'm still holding on to the one thing. You are God and you are strong when I am weak.

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength and I don't have to be Strong enough... Strong enough....



Love always♥mhargie♥

“Well, now
If little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you
Little by little
If suddenly you forget me
Do not look for me
For I shall already have forgotten you...

If you think it long and mad the wind of banners that passes through my life
And you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots. Remember that, on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land” .


― Pablo Neruda, Selected Poems



Love always♥mhargie♥

Preserve Your Power!

Preserve Your Power! Not everybody and everything is worth your energy. Sometimes silence is best. You can't be powerful by giving your power away to every little thing that tries to block you and stop you. Remember, NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER!!! Unplug from negative people. Let them go. Turn them off. Hit delete. Press stop. Press pause. If you want to have a powerful relationship, stop feeding into negative energy. If you want to have a powerful paycheck, stop feeding into negative energy at work. If you want to have a powerful life, stop feeding into drama on Facebook. SOMEBODY needs to give you power. SOMEBODY needs to love you back. SOMEBODY needs to help you. SOMEBODY needs to support you. Sometimes that person is YOU! Love yourself enough to preserve your power for the people & situations that are worth it. If you preserve your power, you'll preserve yourself!

Love always♥mhargie♥

 A real man can't stand seeing his woman hurt. He is careful with his decisions and actions so he never have to be responsible for her pain.


Love always♥mhargie♥

Sometimes...

As a woman, sometimes I don't want much. I just want someone who will listen to my problems or just listen to what I want to say. Someone who will understand and not judge . Someone who will love me unconditionally, will not give up on me and will be there when I need him.

Love always♥mhargie♥

                                Love always♥mhargie♥

I BELIEVE...

I BELIEVE only the women who are working on themselves, forgiving the past, building their value & self worth, striving to be better, believes that love is possible and speaks HIGHLY of relationships and happiness... Exudes and works on their confidence & self love... Those who are uneasily moved and rattled and can handle difficult situations yet remain powerful... Those who know how to be graceful, humble, coachable, lovable, understanding, but won't settle for B.S... Those who are authentically sexy, secure in who they are, always learning, makes mistakes but finds the lesson, hard working, patient and loyal, spiritually plugged in and WISE enough to see the God & strength in a worthy MAN... Those women will be the VALUABLE WIVES to the rare WORTHY MEN that are left. Those who choose to believe & behave differently will spend the rest of their lives alone... Or with someone that isn't worthy of having ANY of this. 

S.C. Sykes


Love always♥mhargie♥

THANK YOU ♥

Lord, I just want to say THANK YOU. Thank you for giving me purpose when I felt like my life was lost. Thank you for giving me strength when I felt like I couldn't go on. Thank you for giving me hope when my circumstances started to take my faith. Thank you for giving me love when hate was trying to harden my heart. Thank you Lord for being my light.


Love always♥mhargie♥

Beautiful song ♥

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide ♥

       Collide by Howie Day♥



Love always♥mhargie♥

I want someone who will. . .

STAY no matter how hard it might get..and be there when I need him the most♥

NEVER GIVE UP on me when times get tough and willing to fight for me just as hard as I’m willing to fight for him and will be afraid of losing me and NEVER LET ME GO.♥

 

Push me everyday to be better than I was yesterday♥

Be my BEST FRIEND as well as my LOVER and always has his eyes on me and never have a look on anyone else.

Take care of my heart when everything falls apart♥ 

Respect and trust me, be loyal and will not take advantage to me,  treat me right, notice the little things I do, cuddle with me, and appreciate everything about me♥

Not try to change me into something I’m not and love me for who I am and support me♥

Walk into my life and STAY ON PURPOSE and be something that I never had to make me realize why it never worked out with anyone else.♥

Be down for spontaneous adventures with me & those days where we can spend hours doing nothing and we can still have fun and cherish every moment with me, bring up good times rather than bad times. Be silly & make me laugh when I’ve had a bad day♥

Take a ride on the highest roller coaster with me and travel the world. We’ll go Rome, Paris, London and so much more together♥

Lay under the stars with me at night, do all the cute things couples do and try everything he could just to see me happy♥

Call me at 5 in the morning just to say “I LOVE YOU” and send me cute cheesy text messages♥

Always send me good morning and goodnight and long text messages in the middle of the night so when i wake up in the morning i’ll have a smile on my face ♥

Talk to me when he has an issue and not put it all out on twitter or facebook♥

Do stuff like this.♥

Be just as weird as I am♥

GROW OLD with me so we can be that old couple slowing down traffic around town someday :) ♥

and most of all, I want someone who will walk with God and~LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY♥

 love always♥mhargie♥

Important things I have learned in life so far.....

• I have learned that I am a person worth loving after all. 

• It may seem funny, but I have learned that people you aren’t related to can take care of you ,love you and teach you to trust people again.
•  I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation.
• I have learned that  my friends are there to understand and support me.
• I have learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
• I have learned that a good feeling gets even better when it’s shared. 
• I have learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
• I have learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
• I have learned that if you depend on others to make you happy, you’ll be endlessly disappointed.
• I have learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
• I have learned that God has always been there for me . I believe he has saved me time and again… He has always been my hope and salvation,.

I am happy. I experienced it. There may be highlights and lowlights but in the end, what matters most is I Survived.

        Stay strong. Stay happy. Stay alive! ♥

Love always♥mhargie♥

“It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on.” 
― Nicholas Sparks

Love always♥mhargie♥

God makes everything happen at the perfect time.♥

Waiting is one of the most difficult things to do, whether we’re waiting for a bus, a phone call or an answered prayer.  We become impatient and wonder why everyone else is holding us up and keeping us from getting what we want.  It seems like the more we want something, the harder it is to wait – and we even get impatient with God!

But we have to remember that God’s timing is different than our own.  He sees things from a different perspective and sees the whole picture, not just what we want, but what is best for us in the grand plan for our lives.  All is part of a divine order and will be done in its own right and proper time.  Of course, when we are hoping, praying and waiting for something, it’s easy to forget this.  After all, waiting is “remaining inactive in one place while expecting something.”  And being inactive means feeling powerless and at the mercy of the world – nobody likes that feeling.  But we must keep in mind God’s greater plan and his perfect timing♥


love always♥mhargie♥

       There is a place in each of us that wants to heal, that can heal, that will heal. It’s a peaceful place, one of nourishment, replenishment, peace, safety, comfort, and joy. it’s a place of love and acceptance. It’s a place of forgiveness, honesty, openness, nurturing, and kindness. You will recognize it instantly because of how it feels. It will bring you back to center. It will bring you back to calm. It will bring you back to joy.♥

Find a place of serenity…….

Love always♥mhargie♥

On your road to recovery, Keep the Faith!

Sometimes, the road to recovery is a long one.

There are detours filled with disappointments and frustrations.

It is difficult to move ahead, not knowing what the future may bring. You are on that road now, and all the medicine in the world cannot reassure you.You hold life by the reins, afraid they’ll slip.Right now the pain around you limits your vision and growth. We all taking for granted. And when the hardships come, we feel that we a being tested —sometimes beyond the point of endurance.But take heart and KEEP THE FAITH. 

Know that at the end of the dark tunnel there is a LIGHT.

The answer lies within you, in the spirit with which you brave the battle.The pain  and suffering are not you, but only a part of you. Hold your head up, and keep true to the brightness within yourself. Move on and never look back,filled with hope and love for what you have endured And reach out with warm hands and an open heart to help others like you..

—Who can learn to move on, too. 

                                                            

Love always♥mhargie♥

TO HEAL FROM THE INSIDE OUT IS THE KEY….

     Nobody ever said that it would be easy, or that the skies would always be sunny. When gray days and worrisome times come along, I need to stay strong. Know everything will be okay because I believe there is always a door that leads to more serenity in life♥ I wanna warm my self with quiet determination and knowledge of brighter days ahead to find happiness that  is waiting for me. As I allow God to guide me in the pacing of my life. As I open my heart to God’s unfoldings, my heart attains peace. As I relax into God’s timing, my heart contains comfort,  finding myself in the right time and place, open and available to God’s opportunities.♥ 

AS I REST AND HEAL…

      I’m thankful to those people who have lent their ears and hearts to me and to those who have cared. Today I’m giving myself whatever gifts of time and rest that i need to feel better and knowing that I have surrounded by caring thoughts, prayers, heartfelt wishes and God’s love♥ 

love always♥mhargie♥

Dear Future Husband,

I can’t wait to fall in love with you. Maybe we have met each other already,Only God knows. I'll guard my heart every second of everyday until God allows us to meet.I’m so excited to meet you, but more than that, I’m excited to grow in Christ as He prepares my heart for you. I pray for you all the time. I hope your faith in God is strong and you’re the kind of man who covers up dirty magazines and you care about the innocence of children and helping make the world a bit less depraved.I promise to love you with my all and I hope you love God more than you love me too.

love always♥mhargie♥

             

The Fearless Chic ♥About me♥

~Do things with passion or not at all, wherever you go, Go with all your heart~

♥ Hi dear! Welcome to my hide away, my secret place. Just call me Mhargs♥ a blogger from southeast asia❀. I'm just a simple passionate dreamer. I can stand as sweet as a cherry , friends with many and never really alone. I have a warm spot in my heart to help others strive and trying to put others before myself. My heart is pure with love and I love rain, sunsets and smell of books♥ I am a free-spirited and passionate person. I like spending my  free time reading, blogging, scrap booking and exploring.  I do what I love♥ I'm always curious. If I don’t like something , then I will change it. If I don’t like my job , I will quit. I like to find happiness in the simplest of things. When I eat, I always appreciate every last bite. I am a very open-minded person, creative, optimistic and love new things and people. 

RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:

ღ I love GOD♥

ღ I love sunset♥

ღ I would like to write a book someday. 

ღ I can travel alone. 

ღ I love writing, reading and decorating. 

ღ I can do different hairstyles on my hair.

ღ I chew gum almost everyday if I have it.

ღ I love horror movies and reality shows.

ღ I can go anywhere I want without asking permission from my parent.

ღ I love to organize my things.

ღ I like simple, neat and clean guy.

ღ I say “alright” a LOT…

ღ I am very  open-minded person.

ღ I love to do things freely.

ღ I accept compliment as a compliment itself.

ღ I love chinese food, filipino, italian and some spicy foods.

ღ One of my dreams is to go to paris♥

ღ I love to wear loose dresses.

ღ I am creative person.

ღ I sleep beside my mom.

ღ I love to wear high heel shoes.

ღ I’m naturally  right handed.

ღ I really enjoy just walking around sometimes, it gives me time to clear my head.

ღ I read newspaper everyday.

ღ I love singing in the bathroom.

ღ I don’t like calling people “sir or mam”.

ღ I can’t sleep without socks on.

ღ I love to decorate my stuff particularly my notes and journal.

ღ I have more than 10 blogs from different blog sites.

ღ I love to read magazines and inspirational books.

ღ I have extroverted personality.

ღ I cry when i am angry and any time.

ღ I sleep silently with 2-3 pillows .

ღ I am so much addicted to cake and ice cream.

ღ I love talking about relationships and human interaction.

ღ I go to mall and somewhere I’ve never been  when stressing out.

ღ I have a very good memory.

ღ I love personality tests.

ღ I take a bath 2 times a day, first in the morning and second is before I go to sleep. 

ღ Traveling is good for me=)Because it’s a way for me to unwind myself.

ღ I have so many pouches in my bag.

ღ People see me as independent and strong person.

ღ I drink a lot of water everyday.

ღ I always bring my notes, journal and at least 1 book anywhere I go.

ღ Whenever im using the Internet, I always check websites that offers true and valuable information.

ღ I like to meet new people.

ღ I can’t live without internet.

ღ I hate being Tickled.

ღ I don’t know how to swim=)

ღ I have a scar in my right feet.

ღ I have big mole on my left shoulder.

ღ I sometimes don’t follow rules.

ღ I bite my fingernails.

ღ I don’t watch asianovelas or teleserye.

ღ I hate being scared of the dark.

ღ I’m very appreciative person

ღ I love biking♥

To my visitors:

♥You may read anything I post here but I disabled the follow button and comment section because this is my personal Blog and I want everything to be neat and clean.

So what more can I say? Just Be yourself because God made you for a beautiful reason♥ and you know what's nice?! No one in this world who’s quite like you so stop over-analyzing things. There are so many beautiful reasons to be happy so go out. Be weird, Be crazy!  Learn to let go and move on with life,  It’s better not to worry about every little thing and just go about life with a bit more optimism and confidence – it makes you stronger and more independent in life and everything seems brighter! Just keep on learning, exploring and find happiness in the simplest of things because Life is too short to be wasted on crap♥

God bless you!  love always-mhargie♥

People are so quick to judge now a days. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as I can and I guess that's my way of hiding from the truth. It just that's the way  everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I'm holding on for dear life on this one last strand that's recently become very delicate.

Love always♥mhargie♥

♥50 THINGS I WANT TO BE♥

1.       I want to be independent.

2.       I want to be content with my life

3.       I want to make the most of what I have.

4.       I want to be loved.

5.       I want to be assertive.

6.       I want to be the person who brightens your day.

7.       I want to travel the world.

8.       I want to be the best person I can be.

9.       I want to be Myself and live my life the way I want to.

10.   I want to be colorful, because that’s what I would be if I showed who I am.

11.   I want to be relaxed.

12.   I want to be the one who smiles.

13.   I want to be an adult with the soul of a kid.

14.   I want to breathe and to be myself always, not only when I am home.

15.   I want to be more self-expressed every day.

16.   I want to be part of a meaningful community.

17.   I want to be free in every sense.

18.   I want to be fearless.

19.   I want to be adventurous, daring, bold.

20.   I want to be glorious.

21.   I want to be a writer.

22.   I want to be successful at all I do.

23.   I want to be creatively intuitive in my crafts.

24.   I want to be driven to achieve greatness.

25.   I want to touch the lives of those around me.

26.   I want to give back and receive the gift of pure happiness.

27.   I want to embrace my imperfections.

28.   I want to remember everything.

29.   I want to stop being afraid of living.

30.   I want to be someone who can connect easily and deeply with others.

31.   I want to be in tune with my desires.

32.   I want to treat myself and others with fierce compassion.

33.   I want to create journals to hold people’s dreams.

34.   I want to practice moderation in all things – including moderation.I want to never stop learning.

35.   I want to be free spirited and fun loving.

36.   I want to be able to let go of my inhibitions.

37.   I want to believe in myself.

38.   I want to be powerful and strong.

39.   I want to be sexy, and actually believe it.

40.   I want to live my life, the way I want to live it.

41.   I want to be free.

42.   I want to be brave.

43.   I want to be grateful  to everyone & everything that comes my way.

44.   I want to be a writer; I want that spirit to embody me without fail.

45.   I want to be understanding, patient, intuitive and  alive.

46.   I want to be blissfully aware of my purpose in this world; I want to touch lives with it.

47.   I want to be honest. Always.

48.   I want to be unafraid of death & dying.

49.   I want to be bold.

50.   I want to be remembered.

                                                  

love always♥mhargie♥

Don't Quit ...

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,

  When the road you're trudging seems all up hill

  When the funds are low and the debts are high

  And you want to smile, but you have to sigh

  When care is pressing you down a bit

  Rest if you must, but don't you quit

  Life is queer with it's twist and turns

  As every one of us sometimes learns

  And many a failure turns about

  When he might have won had he stuck it out

  Don't give up though the pace seems slow--

  You may succeed with another blow

  Success is failure turned inside out--

  The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

  And you never can tell how close you are

  It may be near when it seems so far

  So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit

  It's when things seem worse that you must not quit."

-Don't Quit by Edgar A. Guest

Love always♥mhargie♥

An unexpected turn..

            Sometimes we don't understand why God allows tragedies to happen. But we know that he is compassionate God who never makes mistakes. He allows things to take place within His perfect will. When life delivers an unexpected blow, God is still in control.
            Although I can't always understand why I face hardships and experience unexpected turns. But I can stand firmly on God who said " I will never leave you nor forsake you".God is in control, no matter what's happening in my life. He's there, He cares and loves. Always has, always will be and I do believe He can change unexpected turns into meaningful diversion.

                    
                Have Faith, Be strong.

My prayer:
Lord, you know me inside and out. You know about my pain and distress,you understand the fears of my heart. 
Lord, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, then I am strong. My heart is broken and my spirit mourns but all I know is that Your grace is sufficient. This day, this hour, moment by moment, I choose to lean on You. Thank you for teaching me to always trust in You. Give me strength. Help me to keep my eyes focused on You. I trust in You, oh Lord. For you are my rock!  Help me not to worry, for You are in control. Though I am weak, You will make me strong!  I love you, Lord!  In Jesus name. Amen.♥

Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you.

    I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

Love always♥mhargie♥